Tuesday, September 18, 2007 Y
Unexpected today I am not feeling well and having some high fever u left me alone. Dear it been around 9 month we been together.. I really try my very very best to be ur best bf, I tried to change myself to someone u dun hesistate, but god gave me too little time to prove myself yet misunderstood and concident things happen again and again. Today when grace msg me I am very scared.. I scared u will know and because of this we will argue again and will think too much, in that sec I made a very stupic excuse.. I know inside u, u blaming me why must I do all this to lie to you, I had hurt u deeply.. with a second of silent I can said I done my best dear.. You always tell me u keep changing coz of me, but what ever u do still cannot statify me, but have u ever really really think through.. did I try to change myself for u too? did I try my best to do the best for u? at some moment u always make repeat mistake and that really hurt me alot too.. I am mentally stress.. but I told myself I must hang on.. but.. but.. whenever I make a repeated mistaken u cannnot forgive me, u cannot take it.. for a couple that reach our extend is really equal to we been through some years.. been thorugh hardship..
I am not feeling very well today seriously.. I am really really not feeling well but beacuse of one msg can't fight against our 9 month or that week we been through.. u still choosed not to believe me.. I can swear I got no intension to lie to u, I really didn't.. but u choose to think another way..
Shi hui I had tried my best.. wo yi jin wu nen wei li.. what ever decision u make I will hope u are happy.. You will find someone better than me one day.. the person that never never lie to u, even a small white lie, a person able to send u home, a person who able to hong ni whenever u are unhappy..
Last but not least treasue ur life.. At this world there is a beautiful side de.. dun always think so negative le.. alot of ppl actually love and care abt u de.. give ur self some confident.. Dear last time saying "Ye zhu kola bear wo ai ni" all the best.. bye dear..
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