Sunday, December 16, 2007 Y
Yesterday 15/12/07 was ur bd. I been prepared since 2 week before ur bd, I rem u told me before from young, u only celebrated 1 time with ur family and that was 1 yr old, I tell myself I wanna set something for u so that u will never forget ur bd. I planed to open a mini party for u, and ppl who we invited is just u and me.. I bought ballon, cake, birthday hat, I bought sweet, table cloth, I just wanna set my room into something like a party, but that is just for night, at the afternoon supposely I meet u 1pm but because I need to prepare all this, I woke up at 8.30am but still not enough time, so I met u 1.30pm, u was abit angry with me when I am late, but when I bought the bus I sms u, and u didn't see it untill I almost reach ur house than u call me and asked where am I, because of this we argue and make a big fuss of it.. u cried and walk away, and I stand there with so much heart ache, I been prepared so much thing for u, but.. but.. I just nag why dun u allow me to wear shirt and why u are late and didn't notice my msg.. although everything goes fine after sometime, when we went orchard alot of moment there is so many unhappniness.. I feel so pressure.. I suddenly feel u put too much hope and being too much expectation on what will happen in the afternoon, just because i told u to follow me today.. wat I done for u is just in the night, and why I planed to walk and orchard is beacuse I can drag the time more later also u told me u been sometime did not go window shopping all that, so I bring u, but u blame me didn't bring u to ur place.. dear is that very rediculors? u should let me know what u wanna see.. coz of that we had another argue.. untill we finish our movie, even there is a few min of lovely moment inside the cinema after that we still argue, because u still expect what I giving u.. I feel so pressure and heartache, I suddenly feel where have my dear go to? who is this expectation high gal ? I am sorry I can't do anything special this afternoon for u, I didn't expect how much u are touch on the night.. coz after the afternoon, I got no more confident what I done for u at night is special..
Dear I just wanna said I had try my best to think the best for u.. I tried my best to make something special for u.. maybe u dun even get touch, see from ur face I think u think that what I done is just chey.. sorry shi hui..
After that night, I really ask myself should I still do all this next time.. I feel so hurt and depressed.. I am so useless afterall.. Anyway Happy BirthdaY to you..
{{ 11:59 PM -
Purple&&Freak `
