Monday, January 21, 2008 Y
Dear, do u know sometime not only u will cry, recently in our relationship happen so much things and I found out that there is a slight chances bewteen us.. For now I really feel so down and shear my tear. You told me recently I like to throw temper at you very very often and the attitude towards you had changes.. I think so.. dear I am a human, I got feeling too.. I know how u feel, I am very guilty too, but I really dun know what should I do, I really need time for myself.. I feel so tight and eveything u will ask act if u suspecting me.. We dun even trust each other honestly, how can this relationship last? Actually u dun trust me at all.. and I am so sensitive that I dun also trust you when u tell me u done something for me..
I been feeling when easy get turn off and irrritated by u, I know u will get hurt when u read this sentence, but I am really sorry, I had try my best not to throw temper at you, try to be patient with u, but recently I find that we argue too much too much untill I am really very tired le, it seen like rather than argue in our relationship there is nothing for me to qi tai.. I really feel very bored with this kind of way of lasting it..
You will ask me whether I still love u? u know I really do love u when the day I told u at north point when we working together, but I never ever though of we will argue untill this extend.. I am really enough and tired, I know u too.. and u are also tired of changing for me.. sometime u just dun wanna be straight forward, but I know de dear.. stop lying to me and yourself le..
I am such a bad bf I think.. I think I dun suit to be ur bf.. I can swear to god for this sentence is not because I wanna find a excuse I wanna leave u, but I really find that I really dun suit.. you are a very gd gal, but just that ur character dun blend well with me.. we are both hot temper and sensitive.. we dun trust each other, rather than that we always argue over nothing.. I really cannot find anything we can still be so close anymore.
I really feel very xin ku.. I got no time for myself at all.. I dun said I wanna go out play, even at night I wanna do my assignment also cannot, alot of things sometime I really cannnot do.. dear.. I really beg to god I can still love u and u still love me but let our relationship be better and no more argue and got nothing to hide from each other and trust each other if not we will be soon break up de.. I really dun wanna see u cry everytime anymore or argue anymore, I xin ku also I dun wanna see u xin ku.. wo bu ren xin..
Dear.. bottom of my heart I really really had love u and misses u alot and I really got think we can get marry some day.. I swear.. but I never know things will turn till this stage where I really dun know what to do anymore to our relationship.. I feel so tire that I dun wish to care anymore.. I am really restless and helpless..
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