Today is 15/06/08 Sunday, we just came back from xuan xuan brother chalet. I am now alone at home without u beside me as just now u ran off from amk station. I feel tire, lost and dissapointed, of course I know u feel tat too.. because of my words now u feel that I dun love u anymore and feel no secure at all coz u know I will leave u anytime rite? Dear.. u told me why must I go rem all the time we argue.. u know is not tat I go rem and it is too easy to rem as I know out of 10 time we go shopo for shoes 9/10 we argue, can u think urself too? no matter is big or small matters, every week as long we meet we will argue out of anything.. u know why I dun chase after u or even wanna solve? it been already numb to me.. I am very numb.. yesterday when u told me u must shop for a shoes today and immediately in my mind I know we will argue.. really.. I am not making story. Just now when u got so many comment of all the shoes I choose I already tell myself dun argue with u le.. I must endure, but end up still the same.. I walk off like that go buy my thing or what ever is just I feel really numb already.. I really dun wish to see in my future family will always have this kind of thing happen to me.. You always ask me do I still love u or even u can ans urself saying I dun love u anymore, I sometime feel lost of how do I ans u is not because I dun love u anymore, I am just hesitating.. if this kind of thing keep happen.. I really dun know should I still continue to love u anot? it is selfish not said not love.. I dun wan my future to be that way u understand? You also tell me I dun cherish u.. I dun think so.. u really just dun know.. I cherish u alot..I always tell all my fren when they ask abt u.. I always said u are the best, if to find a wife.. u are the best choice, because u are so innocent.. and that is what I want, but the way we argue everytime due to our character, always there is no solution.. I really dun know why, so u tell me dear.. what should I do? and wat u should do? I really feel very tong ku do u know tat? I am also going NS soon.. I really feel something will change and happen soon if we dun quickly solve this.. I really dun wanna face tat change.. When u see this post I hope we are still okie.. I do still love u..
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