Sunday, August 24, 2008 Y
24/08/08, Morning 9am, u were sleeping in my room once again and I awake alone. It been starting to be like this almost few time since thing start to change. As what I have predicted and wrote on the previous post I hope our relationship wun not go down hill, but seem like it is.. At this moment of time I know something is going to end very soon.. eventually I got no confident any more.. I think that even though I changed sincerely.. our relationship is going to end some how and I gonna face it. By telling me not to put everything into this relationship and telling me na de qi yao fan de sia.. I knew everything.. sometime I abit regret why do I approve u going into this job at the very first place.. I know human will grow up, thinking will change, but some how I think things changes due to ur enviroment.. I really regret.. but thing always happen for a meaning. I am prepared for the worst happen. Do you know dear, to change is not so easy as just said change, this time round I really tell myself to change but I think it really need alot of time to change. You told me not to promise u, dun change all because of u, change for myself, what u said is right, but in order words I feel down too.. I know our relationship is not there anymore..
I admit I been thinking that way too when before everything change, but I always tell myself u r a nice gal, a gal to be a wife, I will not let u down, in the same time I will give u time and help u to change, although I do hurt u alot in the past but I still love u now more than last time.. dear do u know that when u talk to ur boss, I feel really upset and jelouse? I know u will said there I go again, dear do u rem u always said me, why do I talk to a gal in this kind of manner? I said this is the way how I talk.. but u was unhappy, and I know now inside tat time is full of pain.. just now and alot of time when u talk to ur boss, I feel very pain inside me.. but I really dun wanna argue with u, i know u will surely be unhappy and even dun love me as much..
Dear I really feel wu zu and very lost.. why do u change and start leaving further and further when I am in NS? why? do u know how hurt and pain it is? I really hope the next post is to said thanks and all the best to you.. Dear dun leave me can?
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