Saturday, August 16, 2008 Y
17/08/08 Sat night 12.05am, I am outside watching tv.. I miss u sitting beside me, talking to me, laughing with me, playing with me. You were inside my room sleeping for the past 2hr, eventually we was going to play majong, but after my bathing, I see u sleeping tight on my bed, I dun bear to wake u up because I know u r very tired.. u been trying to work hard now a day. But I really need some of ur time.. I didn't go to meet keith for movie, partly is because I know u r tire, I also dun bear to see u just because of me, u still wanna acc me. Recently since u changed after I enlisted, our period of time really getting lesser and lesser.. I really miss the day we been through together, but I guess u r not, even though yes, is just a flash that flash through ur mind. Seriously u had been putting job so important that bu zhi bu jue u had place our relationship behind the ranking. Yesterday night I feel so hurt when u told me the conclusion is u hope we still can be fren even we break off.. tat Q make my heart feel weak and hurt.. You r my second gal I willing to drop my tear for.. You told me if I dun change or accept u, u would not marry me.. this is totally different from what you told me last time before I go NS. Even checking your hp already become a way for u to get angry and may wanna break off with me.. also u start to reqest me to allow u go out with guy for lunch or wat if they ask u out.. All this things isn't what u do to me.. But you told me if I dun accept u, u some how will leave me.. I still have approximately 2yr to end my NS, I really dun know what will happen to us, my previous post was saying I hope our relationship will not go down the slope, but now I can see it is.. I trying my best to retain it.. try my best to do something that show u how much I care and concern abt this relationship.. now u have turn mature, change to a person where is not I firstly know.. I am trying to accept it.. but as time goes by I know u will again change ur mind set, if I can't find a stable career or have sort of power to feed u, u will also will leave me very soon.. all this is influence my someone surround you, what u see from there, u think and u will do.. Dear in this post I just wanna tell u I need more time with u, I wanna so something meaning with u, when sometime I ask u Q abt what is the past I do or even what we have plan to do, u totally forget, u dun ans me in a form of serious also.. I am not sure ur mind is thinking abt work too much or some others things.. I hope one day u will go back to ur past.. someone that scold me and get angry when I look at gal magazine.. scold me for looking at gals.. ask me alot of things that show u care and concern, u will ask me not to worry and hope I wun get angry because of ur job and u will will to quit.. I do not wan u to do that.. just that I wanna know the true u willing to do that for me. I will pass u this blog address either we break off or the day we getting engage.. Dear I love u.. I promise I will bring u to paris tower 1 day very soon.. Please keep our relationship strong..
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