Sunday, February 15, 2009 Y
15.02.09, I went to watch the movie that we had planned to watch during valentine day. Andy Lau and Su Qi that show. If u got a chance, go catch up this movie, when I watch this show, 2 time I nearly break down. There is a story that inside this show andy lau like to tell " Love is just like a crystal ball that fall and break into pieces. Someone will pick up more but some will pick up lesser, but as long you work hard, you will get some." I had done what this story had tell, but how hard I try to pick, no use.. totally no use.. I doesn't know will you still come to see our blog anot, but I have to tell you wo bu gan yuan, I really bu gan yuan.. but since you have leave, I wun stay you back anymore.. Yesterday I went to drink, I drank alot, on the mean time I am thinking what are you doing? staying home alone? or celebrating ? sorry if u think my words too much, but at this stage if you were me, you will have the same though. You know the song "hao xin hao bao" ? in this show, it contain that too.. But sometime I really douth so, or is just the time still not yet come?
I.. I got purest of pain that I dun know how to speak out, I am speechless. Take Care..
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Saturday, February 14, 2009 Y
14 Feb 09, Valentine day's. Before I blog this post, I got alot of thing in my mind that I wish to speak out, but when I facing the com now, I dun know what to say. Dear, maybe I think really this time round is my last time calling u dear kola.. My baby kola.. All this months and year though we really argue alot of time, even sometime arguing the same topic but I believe we learn from our mistake more or less. Before we even patch u told me, u had though carefully you will stay with me all the way, till we old and die.. you love me.. is all this something that you just wan me to feel touch and allow this relationship to carry on?? I had been trying very hard to maintain this relationship, to change, maybe you can't see a big change or different in me but at least I did not bastard you, u gave me ur precious, you told me I am the 1st, I never ever took in for granted, I cherish..
You told me u was confuse, is tat the real reason? this is the second time already.. Before I got together, I believe I ever told you, I dun trust words but only action.. because in a relationship use to always say I love u forever, I will stick to u no matter what, I will not leave you.. we get marry.. we plan for this and that but end up with nothing.. Sometime I think valentine day is a evil day but not a lovely day, I got broke up 2 time in my life at this date. ha.. fantastic.. if u got to try out 1 day, u will know how fun it taste inside the heart, coz it just feel like thousand of needle penetrate through at your weakest point.
Why must it been valentine day? seeing ppl beside me planning and talking about how they going to celebrate, I turn depress, I feel sucks.. Actually this valentine I planned something for you, although I didn't buy u any present, but I ordered 6 purple rose with 6 tulip, I know u like pruple, so this year I want the rose to be different, and eventually I plan to bring u to a thai restraunt I use to work, I mention that to u before,but due to valentine day, I want our relationship to pick up like when we just get started, I plan to go over to our first date restraunt.. but.. ha.. everything is over..
Now I believe in army, 95% of relationship broke up.. I though I am always the special wan, but I am not, this time round I think I am also serious, dun contact me at this short moment, let me get over everything..
Thanks for this 2 year you ever love me truly, care for me truly, give in what ever u could.. thanks.. without you walking with me to 8tou at nite to eat sui jiao mee I will miss you.. although I dun hope to see u or knowing u found someone else that u once again fall in love with my selfishness, I still hope you will get fortune and happiness after broking up with me..
Also say a big thanks to ur mum for me too, although she dun really like me, but she still done something for me, also ur brother.. he also help us speak up alot.. Sorry I can't send you much time going home or even buy what ever u like just like other ppl bf.. but I believe u will find someone better.. If one day I got my car and get rich, I will come look for you again to have a high tea..
All the best my dearest baby kola.. sincerely I miss and love you.. thanks for correcting me alot, especially my english and singing, I will practice it well.. All the best sa gua.. May your study in future and job go smoothly.. Muack! ^_-
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