Wednesday, May 27, 2009 Y
Shi hui, do u believe sometime some lies can never be hide forever? rem the ah gong and ah ma gong zai u gave to me? I treasure it so much until one day I realize everything u said is a lie. If I am not wrong, this gong zai is not make by you, from what I know, this is from those $1 coin machine, and was very long ago item. I do not want to guess how u get it or how long u had keep it, as far as I know, that is not done by you.
When I saw this exactly the same gong zai, my heart shacked and when I get to know more, and I got to know, this is from the machine. Shi hui, do u know how dissapointed am I ?? I feel so sorry for you and myself. All the best to u shi hui.
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After awhile since we broke off, things had change alot, I do not know how much changes you had seem, but to me, I learn alot, I learn alot mistake that we both had made, especially me, I have to admit, I need to apologize on my part. If time could turn back, everything will not be the same, and today maybe we are still as happy as in the past. 3 months, although I tried to move on, but I just can't forget the promises we both given to each other, though I believe and know, time can change alot of things, and maybe now, what I had said, to u, that's all just nonsense or maybe our past had turn into a topic between u and him.
Last week when I took a cab home at night, on the way, I saw the path way we use to walk after work, I remember the very beginning of our relationship, I even cover ur eye, told you to walk with feeling and just hold my hand, "trust me" I wun lead u the wrong way. Now the path way left with me looking through.
If time could turn back, shi hui, the mistake we make, the mistake I had make, will never be exist or even minimize, because I start to understand, why would u not go to slp at nite, just want me to settle the arguement we had start, I understand why do u always cry, I understand why do u always look at me while I am sleeping, and I understand, why do u like to hug me so much.
I can't hide my feeling any longer, I am not some guy with no pride that turn back to a gal had leave me, I just want to let you know, with the courage brought up by the love that still exist in me, I still love you.. if u were to come back and look at this blog, I hope you understand what msg I trying to pass to you.. I hope time is still not too late, the old man and woman is still kept by me without damaging and one of the pig u gave it to me, is still at your side.
May one day u can hear me and matters able to change. ^_^ Miss you.
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Saturday, April 4, 2009 Y
04/04/09, Sat Morning. It had been a month plus since we broke up. I do not know how much you still remember our memory and how often you come to this blog that I had specially created for us, but one thing I know, I always visit this blog, I always think maybe one day when I am viewing this blog, at the same time, u r viewing too. Maybe it is different between a person who in a relationship now and a person is not. After we broke up until now, I still sometime think we are so silly that make such mistake that never can be reveal. Recently I read some books about relationship, it is quite a nice book and the content are quite close to what we had been through. Though everything is too late, I have to say only good memory stays in my mind, if u were to ask me think of the unhappiness suddenly, ^_^ I think I could not. Happen to browse through your friendster, seeing our photo being removed finally, I felt kind of hm.. do not know how to describe the feeling, but I know that is the fact.
If u can rem I called u one of the night, if I were to be the past, I do not think I will call, as I want pride. But that night was different, misses ur voice alot. Wishing u and him being happy was a sentence that had never come through my mind I would said. Maybe after so many thing, my heart tell me, I ever love you that deep.
I do not know how much he can give it to you, how long you will be with him, but the memories will stay in my mind forever. Was woking hard recently to get my life back to normal, used to be a very happy single life person before getting knowing you, but getting back to that status is not just so easy. This post may be my last post as I think I really had to let u go already. I believe I do not exist so much anymore in u, this is the fact of life I think.
Hope one day when we met up some where in the middle of the street, I could face you without hurt feeling and say "hi" to you. Good luck for your study shi hui, study hard, dun drop out again le ya.. Jia You!
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Saturday, March 14, 2009 Y
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Sunday, February 15, 2009 Y
15.02.09, I went to watch the movie that we had planned to watch during valentine day. Andy Lau and Su Qi that show. If u got a chance, go catch up this movie, when I watch this show, 2 time I nearly break down. There is a story that inside this show andy lau like to tell " Love is just like a crystal ball that fall and break into pieces. Someone will pick up more but some will pick up lesser, but as long you work hard, you will get some." I had done what this story had tell, but how hard I try to pick, no use.. totally no use.. I doesn't know will you still come to see our blog anot, but I have to tell you wo bu gan yuan, I really bu gan yuan.. but since you have leave, I wun stay you back anymore.. Yesterday I went to drink, I drank alot, on the mean time I am thinking what are you doing? staying home alone? or celebrating ? sorry if u think my words too much, but at this stage if you were me, you will have the same though. You know the song "hao xin hao bao" ? in this show, it contain that too.. But sometime I really douth so, or is just the time still not yet come?
I.. I got purest of pain that I dun know how to speak out, I am speechless. Take Care..
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Saturday, February 14, 2009 Y
14 Feb 09, Valentine day's. Before I blog this post, I got alot of thing in my mind that I wish to speak out, but when I facing the com now, I dun know what to say. Dear, maybe I think really this time round is my last time calling u dear kola.. My baby kola.. All this months and year though we really argue alot of time, even sometime arguing the same topic but I believe we learn from our mistake more or less. Before we even patch u told me, u had though carefully you will stay with me all the way, till we old and die.. you love me.. is all this something that you just wan me to feel touch and allow this relationship to carry on?? I had been trying very hard to maintain this relationship, to change, maybe you can't see a big change or different in me but at least I did not bastard you, u gave me ur precious, you told me I am the 1st, I never ever took in for granted, I cherish..
You told me u was confuse, is tat the real reason? this is the second time already.. Before I got together, I believe I ever told you, I dun trust words but only action.. because in a relationship use to always say I love u forever, I will stick to u no matter what, I will not leave you.. we get marry.. we plan for this and that but end up with nothing.. Sometime I think valentine day is a evil day but not a lovely day, I got broke up 2 time in my life at this date. ha.. fantastic.. if u got to try out 1 day, u will know how fun it taste inside the heart, coz it just feel like thousand of needle penetrate through at your weakest point.
Why must it been valentine day? seeing ppl beside me planning and talking about how they going to celebrate, I turn depress, I feel sucks.. Actually this valentine I planned something for you, although I didn't buy u any present, but I ordered 6 purple rose with 6 tulip, I know u like pruple, so this year I want the rose to be different, and eventually I plan to bring u to a thai restraunt I use to work, I mention that to u before,but due to valentine day, I want our relationship to pick up like when we just get started, I plan to go over to our first date restraunt.. but.. ha.. everything is over..
Now I believe in army, 95% of relationship broke up.. I though I am always the special wan, but I am not, this time round I think I am also serious, dun contact me at this short moment, let me get over everything..
Thanks for this 2 year you ever love me truly, care for me truly, give in what ever u could.. thanks.. without you walking with me to 8tou at nite to eat sui jiao mee I will miss you.. although I dun hope to see u or knowing u found someone else that u once again fall in love with my selfishness, I still hope you will get fortune and happiness after broking up with me..
Also say a big thanks to ur mum for me too, although she dun really like me, but she still done something for me, also ur brother.. he also help us speak up alot.. Sorry I can't send you much time going home or even buy what ever u like just like other ppl bf.. but I believe u will find someone better.. If one day I got my car and get rich, I will come look for you again to have a high tea..
All the best my dearest baby kola.. sincerely I miss and love you.. thanks for correcting me alot, especially my english and singing, I will practice it well.. All the best sa gua.. May your study in future and job go smoothly.. Muack! ^_-
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Monday, January 26, 2009 Y
Today is chinese New Year 1st day, I am alone at home, still rem last year chi new year, u went to cinema bought ticket for me and my family to wait for us, we watched the movie together, think back, I really apperciate the way u do it, u also told me ur aunt ask u not to leave so early, but u insist to come meet me.. that was when u love me real lot ba I think. Eventually u told me chi new year 2nd and 3rd day u will acc me, but this afternoon u told me u going ur da yi ma house.. I suddenly feel kind of lost, u give me a very strong feeling that we like really getting further and further, maybe yes u ask me to come along, but I really feel very wierd u understad? I know u will think is ok, u will think I am the one who sensitive or wat.. but I hope u will understand me too.. I dun wanna be so odd, I dun mind u going to ur da yi ma house, as u told me ur cousin everyone is going and u need to go. but can u show some care for me than saying nvm ba. Today all ur sms not more than 4 sentnce, and not more than 10 msg. Do u really care what I am doing now? how I feel now?
I feel very lonely now.. thinking of going out for a drink, but I know u wun like it and if u know that I go, we will argue agian and what ever we yesterday talk de all will go back zero.. Dear u always say u still love me, still love me, still miss me, do u think so? U really dun even care le, pls tell me so if u dun wanna together le, we say hao le wanna save our relationship, give it one more chance, but u dun seem executing u know? with one person, how u wanna me to withstand?
Dear pls come back.. dun change..
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